A personal essayist carries the weight of the world on her little writer’s shoulders.
She breaks a teacup.
She writes an essay about breaking the tea cup.
She turns introspective.
She employs wits.
She jerks at the heart’s strings.
She considers the social impact of breaking the teacup.
She turns a seemingly insignificant moment into a neatly resolved story with a moral and rounds it out with insightful commentary on the way we live now.
I like to think of myself an essayist, or perhaps an essayist in training. I’ve always believed that there is a story behind everything – and every story is interesting if you tell it right. There should never be a lack of inspiration, as long as you’re in the mood to be creative.
And there is certainly never a lack of inspiration when your favorite subject is the way we love now.
After several years in the trenches of Love’s War, I’ve decided every first date can provide preliminary material for a minimum of 3 essays. For each date thereafter, the number of possible papers increases exponentially.
As you stop counting singular dates and start measuring your relationship in real time frames (i.e., weeks, years), you can generate an endless number of moralizing assemblages of prose.
I’ve never had a problem finding a greater life lesson or an aha! moment of self-reflection in a first date… until Gary.
Gary came pre-approved with the Grimm’s Fairytale Stamp of Prince Charming Approval. He was everything I had ever designed for myself in the Simms World of dream mates. I was ready to fall in love with him. Fate dangled him in front of me just long enough for me to get my hopes up and then, it whoosed him away.
Sitting pen and paper in hand a few days later, I was at a loss. I find myself asking:
What was the fucking point of that one?
If I could have walked away having learned something worth sharing I would feel better about Gary’s intrusive foray into my dating life. Be a jerk, I say, but at least lead me to an “aha!” moment in the process!
Thus, instead of rising above the fray of emotion to bring this to a resolved closing remark, I end insight-less. Essayist major fail.
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